放手

撑了快五年了
埋藏在心底的感觉
终于说了出来
总算放下了牵挂
我的话语已经被收到
答案已揭晓
虽然答案不是我想要的
可是我必须学着面对现实
不要再活在欺骗自己的世界里
付出从来不等于收回
是时候学着放手.
谢谢你，我会学着面对事实.
没有谁对谁错
没有公不公平
我会勇敢地走下去

"Letting go doesn't mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be. Let it be, deal with it, face it, live with it."

Forgiving, can i?

"Forgiving does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future."

New Year, Fresh Start

The whole December were supposed to be my holiday.
But the whole family were attacked by unhappy stuffs
We've been running around hospitals and clinics
Those gone were gone...
I'm just thankful that they are getting better now.
Since its a new year...its gonna be a fresh start.
And I'm hoping for a new start...Trust myself that its gonna be a great year...
Let go of the lousy ending of 2010.

I was able to make it to a short lil trip with my Uni-mates the next day right after exam last December.
Some of them came to over9 at my house...
I always welcome my friends over...nth worth better than getting to spend more time with ppl i love.
As planned and agreed before exams..
We wanna go for a trip.
But i found this nice and near short holiday getaway place for the dozen of sakai-z
Its the Asian Water Sports Village located at Taman Tasik Prima.
Just 5-10 mins away from my house.
We gather up and went to have Dim Sum for breakfast..
Then headed to Tesco to hunt for foods to buy for the BBQ dinner
And then headed to the awesome place.
The Luxury duplex is awesome...facing a view of a HUGE lake...which is the size of more than 100 over basketball courts.
We're staying in the upper unit with a roof balcony.(The winds are super strong up there, super relaxing i should say)
The unit itself has 4 levels, 4 for the lower unit.
We were not supposed to make noises after 10pm or else we will be asked to leave..
So laughter and shhhhhhh were the most heard noisy for 2 days and 1 night.
I enjoyed myself to the maximum after the finals.
It was great to spend and live together with the other 11 of them.
We were provided with water sports activity at the lake...
Motorized sports activity for 2 hours.
Theres also infrared sauna and jacuzzi available.
The thing i love the most was kayaking....swimming in the lake...the view of sunrise was super breathtaking..
I love the whole scene and mood^^

Sorry that i wouldn't be uploading pics over here because i'm tired and busy
but its available at my Facebook page...click here if ure interested of that place and the villa.

And i finally made it to the beach before my classes commence.
Went to Bagan lalang or Sepang gold coast with my cousins and uncles.
Had dinner at Carrey Island, Klang.

A great news for me would be I'm finally in Year 2 after crawling slowly.
I passed all the subs for the previous semester..
Thank God i PASSED!!!

There are so much to be shared but so little time
This semester is gonna be hectic compared to previous years in college or University.
Year 2 is no longer easy like Year 1.
Just hope and wish i'll get through it.

Lets work hard together everyone^^

I miss spending time with my family and my dearest friends :(

“There are two types of people who will tell you that you cannot make a difference in this world: Those who are afraid to try themselves, and those who are afraid that you will succeed.”

Bruno Mars, Grenade

Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open?

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from
Mad women, bad women, that's just what you are, yeah
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for ya, baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you never do the same
No, no, no, no

Transformers: Dark of the Moon Official Announcement Trailer HD

I miss the autobots!!!

Choice of Thoughts

When you're faced with a dilemma/ problem/ question
About life, study, relationships, anything...
Theres always 2 basic choices
To face it, or to avoid it
Different people use different methods or ways to deal with things
Freedom of choice is another thing
But most of the time, we are free to choose any options
There are always a choice even when you say "I have no choice".

Would you be able to let of of the old baggage
Pack a new one
Get on a plane
And leave for a brand new journey?
Theres one tiny thing which motivate you to take the big step
Courage.
To be brave to take up that choice and turn into action is all you need.
If you're able to let go of the past and just pick up the pieces,
Stand up and walk forward to a new pathway
Congratulations, you've taken a start to move on.

But...Theres always a downside of things
It doesn't mean you're a looser if you weren't able to move on
You just needed more time, support and motivation
Don't sit there mourning over the past
Because no one will be pity for you
You're the one who can truly make the choices
You're the one who can truly pick up the pieces and choose to stand up again
Others could only give you help/ guidance or suggestions
But
You still have to make your own choice
Its your life
Not theirs
Life is short
Live your life to the fullest
That if one day when you're suppose to turn back n look
You have to be sure that you have lived your life with no regrets

"A simple goal in life is to be happy, maybe its expectation of wanting to be happy keeps us away instead of getting there."

December

Its the last month of 2010
What are you going to do for the rest of the month?
Whats your plan?
Mine?
I'm gonna wait til the finals are over
And then i will be officially done with year 1 of my studies
Pray that I'll pass everything k...

I will do these after my finals:
- party...alot
-hang out with my besties
-trips with Uni mates,family and friend
-celebrate Christmas
-celebrate new year

Life can be despairing and miserableBut there are always lights that can brighten our paths
Pick up the pieces and be ready to move forward.

“If someone is too tired to give you a smile, leave one of your own, because no one needs a smile as much as those who have none to give”

The City Of Lights

Went to I-city with my cousins on Sunday night
The adults went to Klang for a wedding dinner
So the "kids" planed some activities for dinner and outing

After dinner, we headed to I-city
There are extra things compared to the first time i visited during last sem break
Since Christmas is coming...there are snowman and cold room added
It was super crowded...
Attracted loads of ppl there
The parking costs us RM 10 but 5 ppl will be allowed into the cold room free
If without redemption of parking tickets, RM 2 will be charged per person to the cold room.

“Hot heads and cold hearts never solved anything”

I See The Light

All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it's all so clear
I'm where I'm meant to be

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything looks different
Now that I see you

All those days chasing down a daydream
All those years living in a blur
All that time never truly seeing
Things the way they were
Now she's here shining in the starlight
Now she's here, suddenly I know
If she's here, it's crystal clear
I'm where I'm meant to go

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog is lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once, everything is different
Now that I see you, now that I see you
(Mandy Moore and Zachary Levi)

Saturrrrday

Woke up at 6 am on a Saturday morning which is super odd for me
Because as part of the course, we need to attend 4 hours of experiments hours and 1 hour of colloquium....which is all compulsory if not they will deduct your marks from all the subjects.
Everyone looked so blur and tired
Poor suk ming, yen wan and charlotte was late and were required to take another session
So all of us ended up going home without having breakfast together

I wanted to sleep after i got home but i couldn't fall asleep...
So i woke up and shower again and prepare myself
Went to one utama with Nie Nie Kho and Yip Wai Wai
Had BBQ Plaza for lunch...

<3 the garlic rice!!!
Then we headed to Tropicana Mall( my first time ever going there)
Cus we bought tickets from the gsc there
One utama's one was kinda fully sold out
Watched Tangled or Rapunzel Funny and nice
Its another Happily Ever After Story...
Fairy tales~~~~ I love Rapunzel...especially her super long hair...hahahahz
I have a Rapunzel barbie doll, Mum bought it for me when I'm Standard 2 or 3
And my barbie dolls are still living in my upper closet...lolz

Headed back to Yip Wai Wai's house after that
Hong and Seng joined us for dinner
went back to his house and play Monopoly Deal Its another version of monopoly...
but its in card but played in other kinds of rules....
After getting bored of the game
They checked airfares...wanted to go backpacking end of this year
Taiwan, Korea, India??
I doubt my mum would let me go

Danny went back hometown on Sunday morning...started his holidays ad
And i still have to wait til 14th Dec...

Trips...i want to go...anywhere and everywhere!!

"Happiness is not a station you arrive at, but a manner of traveling."

Photoshoot with Evon.T

Joined Danny and the team for a photo-shoot session
And I get to meet some new friends Evon. T and Anna Cherie
They are so nice and friendly^^


You can see the first set of pictures in Facebook taken by Danny

Photographer :Danny Kho
Model: Evon. T
Make up, Hair : Anna Cherie
Wardrobe: Brian Khoo

“There are no rules for good photographs, there are only good photographs.”

Beware! We Move In A Dozen

The Uni-sakai-z group headed to Ikea and The Curve to celebrate Yen Wan and Zhi Wei's Belated Birthday
Sorry that it wasn't fancy and well planned
But hopefully you all still enjoyed it.
It really doesn't matter where you go but who you're with
Being together bring us laughter
And that....I'm happy
Yes, I'm happy now.
Please stop making my life miserable
My life no longer revolves around you.
I miss you but its time for me to move on.

I should be grateful that i have different bunch of good frens...all along accompanying my growth.
And I'm happy to have each and everyone of you.